Writing a book is hard...
With the first book I was writing my story, no qualms about what people would think. It was just me and my characters living out their story. Then I hit publish and people actually read it!!!!
Right?? People actually read it!
Enter book 2... *scoffs*
Yes, I know it was stupid. But I did it. It happened. BUT I got over it. I got that crap out of my head and I was able to write the book that my characters wanted me to write. Fear of failure be damned!
But then I published it... I know. And then people read it... again. I know. It is what I hoped would happen.
Of course that left the final book
That says it all. I'm not sure what else there is to say. This is where that fear comes in. I know what you are thinking... you had fear with book 2. And you would be right. I did. But this fear is different. If I don't end this right then I have the potential to ruin the entire series experience for someone. Yea, no pressure or anything!
Can you tell me how many series endings have let you down? Well, I can't put a number on them either, but I can tell you that it is way more than I'd like to admit. It happens. It's a fact. But I don't want it to happen to my story. No, I want this story to rock my reader's world and leave them breathless. But that is a lot to deliver on and I know that. Which is part of the reason that a year later and book 3 still isn't finished.
All those fears and doubts have crept into my brain and taken residency. And it has me frozen in fear of finishing.